Sometimes life gets crappy. You don’t know when it happens and you don’t know how it happens. But you just wake up one day and life isn’t what it used to be. Now, I am not talking about super dramatic crappy life, like several people go through. I am talking about just plain crappy life, there is something in your heart that makes your life seem not okay. You can’t put your finger on it and because you don’t know what it is, you can’t fix it. You still try to fix it but in all reality nothing really helps.
I don’t know what happened to my life or how it happened. But I woke up one day and just knew I wasn’t as happy as I was showing the world. Is that hard to admit? Yeah it is. I wasn’t “the world is an awful place and I hate everything” unhappy. I just was not happy. Something was missing from my life and I wasn’t fully sure if I would ever know what it was. Truth be told, I felt trapped in everything I was doing and I couldn’t get out. It was like I was drowning and there was no one to save me. I was surrounded by people but felt so alone. I wanted to leave everything behind and I just wanted to hide. I don’t know how long I lived like this, just faking being happy but it was a long time. I think it became all I knew. But this isn’t a story about how unhappy I was. This is a story is how I came out of the dark and into the light. This is a story about how one city changed everything. This is a story about how I changed and how I caught a glimpse of a life that I was meant to live. My journey is an interesting one with many different experiences and stories. I want to share some of it with you because life should be lived happily and if someone isn’t happy they need to look inside themselves to figure out what it is. My life changed for the better and almost like I never lived before.